So I have this really weird new fear- well I guess it has really always been there but more recently it has come more forward. I am scared of Earthquakes. I know it is dangerous, and very potential- and I have done the drills since I was 5 of hiding under your desk, or in a door frame, and then filing out in an orderly fashion to a safe place. But this is all occuring during the day- my fear is of an eathquake happening at night, and me not waking up (which is ridicuoulous because I am the lightest sleeper I know even with ear plugs in)
I am not sure why this fear has suddenly come up- but I have my guesses. Last semester I took a geology class, and the whole semster the teacher said how we were due for the "big one" any day now. Also, for some reason I have been watchin alot of tv shows on Yellowstone- which is also long over due for a big cataclismic erruption.(which when this happens it will destroy yellowstone, and cover all of the surrounding states with ash including Utah- wahoo)
For whatever reason this fear has surfaced- it is not fun. The first time I experienced this was about four months ago, I was asleep in bed, and felt a shake or a jolt(this was most likely cause by my movement or something) but in the wee hours of the morning, it made it feel like more, plus I swear that I heard some sort of rattling or banging outside. This first time it occured, I was so petrified that I literally was laying in bed awake for 30 mins scared that there would be an aftershock, so I did not want to go back to sleep. It also felt so real that the first thing I did that morning was turn on the news and check to see if there had indeed been an earthquake. Nothing.
I have had this same basic thing happen three times since then- It is not as dramatic as it was the first time, and I can convince myself that it was just my imagination. But it is getting annoying.
So what am I saying? I really truly hope that when the "big one" acutally does finally come, that it happens during the day, and not at night. Is that a weird thing to wish for?
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